愛の悲しみ – Love’s Sorrow
It’s all about perspective.
Kousei’s mother was only ever portrayed as the tyrannical mother. But we never did get to hear her side of the story, not until this episode. Why was she so harsh on Kousei? Why did she deprive him of the childhood that he had every right to? It was all out of love for him; love that mutated into the harsh form that we witnessed in episodes past. However, harsh as she might have been, it really was just like what Seto said in the previous episode, that no mother would hate her own child. Saki was fraught with guilt that she was leaving Kousei to fend for himself, fear that her child would not be able to survive on his own and frustration that she did not have enough time. And so, plagued with all of that negativity, she did the only thing she knew to do – subject her child to extremely harsh training so that he may be equipped with the most superb of skills; skills that will (hopefully) give him a future. Ultimately, it was motherly love that brought out the monster in her.
But was she so wrong to do so? Her actions might have been misguided, but she was doing what she thought would be the best for her son. Comments reveal so much hate for Saki, because of all that ill treatment she subjected Kousei to. However, one must remember that it takes two hands to clap. Sure, Kousei might not have become such a tortured soul if it weren’t for Saki, but he also wouldn’t have turned out this way if he hadn’t wished his mother dead. Then there might be those who would counter that Saki’s severe treatment pushed him to say that, but spare a thought for her, she was dying and was just looking out for her child! Her methods were extreme, but she did manage to leave Kousei with such a gift. A gift so magical that it wow-ed the audience and rendered them speechless. Just look at how thrilled Emi and his friends were. Even Seto was impressed, for which I am glad because she was blaming herself for all the torture that Kousei had put himself through, she being the one who got Kousei started on the piano playing route and all (brilliant voice acting from Sonozaki Mie, whose “gomen ne” at 09:10 was just all levels of heartbreaking).
This episode was such a breakthrough for Kousei. Not only did he find it in himself to bring out what his mother left him – the expression of imagery within him – but he also managed to release himself from his very own prison. He has finally bid his mother a peaceful farewell, and conquered his inability to hear his own playing. Kousei has now grown so far and beyond, that what he has now is a gift that is so unparalleled. It is just an absolute shame that it took losing the most important person in his life for this gift to find its way to him. Again, this series is dropping mad hints about Kaori’s departure. Aren’t we all just expecting Kaori to leave him soon? Oh, the suspense is just killing her me…